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8:54:00 PM | 12/15/2006

Everything is nt right these few days..

Hi everyone..it's been days since i last post..actually i dun feel like posting 2dae too..but i reali just wan 2 sae how i am feeling nw..gt 1 thing tt makes me feel happi and 1 thing tt make me sad as well..

The one tt makes me feel sad is tt i feel tt these few days, at work, i didn't enjoy much..especially this week..somehow didn't manage to get any happiness or enjoyness despite was working with syahidah and my kitchen kakkas but e problem might lie with because i am nt working e shift tt i wan 2 work..which resulted a lot of things tt wouldn't happen or shouldn't happen at work to me and to others to happen..things like being complained, at work couldn't stand properly, couldn't give my best like just me alone handle cashier, would nt panic when facing crowds or jam..cn cool down and settle things..just feel like my brain is dead..nt working..is just feeling like lacking of something or something is missing in me which even i myself also dunno..is it friendship?? enjoyness?? happiness?? love?? hmm..should reali hv a good thinking about it..coming 2 days working with sir philip as well..just hope tt these 2 days cn just peacefully be over..dun hope much..just hope tt wouldn't make any mistakes..

So i am happi is tt i feel tt wad i hv learnt in RP helps me a lot..it helps me find out reasoning to those stubborn ppl like my mother who little bit, little bit will wan 2 quarrel with e other person especially when talk about my grandmother matter..but somehow, when just nw was eating dinner, hv a gd chat with her about my grandmother, asking and telling her wad to do since she chosen e way to deal with my grandmother who is very stubborn as well..and i manage to persuaded her despite almost broke out quarrels when e 2 of us are discussing about it..so i feel tt through everyday's presentation at RP, it helps me by allowing me to have a better talk and think more appropriate at a very fast rate..

But however, e unhappiness still bothers me a lot..tt's me..always like to help others but never ever think of myself..maybe i am waiting or hoping someone cn help me bah..cn give me a pull..and i were be glad and willing to wait for this to happen..u might sae i too rely on someone, but isn't it good sometimes dun be so strong?? hv some time let people comfort and entertain u to cheer u up ur mood so tt u cn cheer those who are down as well?? anyway, so tt's it for nw bah..if feeling better le..tml. will post again be4 i work..so tata..